7/22/08

4 Years and Several Pounds Ago


I gave birth to Gracie.
On July 22, 2004.

My pregnancy caused great stress and I wondered how we would get through.
A double-blow was dealt when I found out that we were having a girl.
I wondered how.

How I would mother a girl.
I knew love and hugs would be involved. That's easy.
But it was all of that other stuff.

Needless to say, it's been fine.
Beyond fine.
I still struggle with the horror of horrors:
Princess crap.
I draw the line at tiaras and clothing with the words princess on it.
But she's a girl.
Through and through.

Despite being my daughter, she is my rock.
She has no idea that there are days when she is what is holding me together.
And I recognize that might not be good.
But all it takes is for her to smile or touch me.
And I know it will all be OK.

She is full of something that I will never possess.
She is what would happen if you mixed the very best parts of Rav and I
but only
made it better.
She is that fantabulous.

I love my daughter.
My girl.
Happy Birthday, my little lovely.

Here is your (latest) favorite song.
May you hold it close. And remember it is so true.

7 ripples in the pond:

alejna said...

Happy Birthday, beautiful girl!

She sounds wonderful. And how beautiful that you see the wonder in her, and shared it here.

It's funny for me to read about women who were thrown for a loop to find that they will be having a girl. I always envisioned myself having 2 girls, just like we had in my family. And I was pretty shocked by the news that we'll be having a boy. (I'm adjusting to the idea by now.)

Joker The Lurcher said...

when we found out my son was a son my husband said "this is good - you won't have to deal with all your mother daughter stuff with him" which was so true.

Becc said...

Always love to read your posts and enjoy the surprise of the song you have chosen.
I went through the same thing when I discovered I was having another girl, 11 years ago...

KC said...

She is so lovely. I'm hoping for the princess stage...for less dirt!

Happy day to her!

Deb said...

This is so lovely Tabba. And yeah, I get the part about the days when it's her holding you together. My kids did that for me many, many days.

Take care.

Aliki2006 said...

Happy birthday to your beautiful daughter!

How ARE you? I miss you...

carrie said...

That will never stop being one of my favorites either . . . timeless.

Happy, happy birthday little one.