2/8/07

Walking Through The Fog

I don't know what's going on with me this week. It's like for the past two or so weeks, I shot my wad & now I've got zilch. I have quite a few posts that are half-finished non-sensical what-ever. I had to type a two page paper for class (I mean, how hard can that be?) and my mind is so cloudy that I felt like every sentence was either a fragment, a run-on, or again, nonsense.

I have had nothing to draw on this week.
Tabula rasa.

In other news, today I go to the doc for my blood work results. I know this sounds crazy, but I hope he comes up with something. Because then at least I'll have an explanation for what has been going on. Not necessarily mentally, but otherwise. And tomorrow, Rav and I head out for Part I of his medical "stuff".
Honestly, everything is an effort. Waking up in the morning - major effort.

Preparing a meal. HA! It takes me all day to talk myself into making the most meager of meals. I feel like I need a cheerleader here.
You can do it! You can do it! Put the food on the stove! There's nothing to it! You can do it!
Ugh.

What's weird is how great I felt last month & this month (which has just barely begun) has left me zapped and a limp noodle of my former self. Perhaps that's just the giving and taking of energy? The natural balance of things in the universe. So, if you all wouldn't mind...send some energy/general health vibes my way.
Thanks.

6 ripples in the pond:

Pippajo said...

I know what you need...you need a new MEME!

I tagged you, by the way. When I'm in a slump, I find Memes to be quite helpful in "jumpstarting" my creative juices. I'd much rather answer some questions than come up with a whole theme, body and title of a post.

This Meme is long, but it's pretty easy. Plus, I'm dying to see your answers. Go on, you know you want to.

P.S. Speaking of bloodwork, I got mine back a few days ago and was supremely discouraged to find that absolutely nothing is wrong with me. That set me back for days! Isn't that nuts? But I know what you mean about kind of hoping something turns up. Cause it would be an explanation and not just, "You're lazy, fat, and have no motivation. For no reason."

I tell you, it's Meme time.

Jon said...

You could get amped up about my birthday! That's plenty exciting, and there's a party, to boot :) And when you can't think of anything to Blog about, just blog about superheroes. That's kind of a good theme.

Ciao,
-J

deb said...

Sending you vibes of energy and good health. I'm finding winter has taken the wind out of my sails. Hope you're feeling better soon.

Maggie said...

Everytime I go to the doctor for something they blame it on stress. Last time he sent me home and said think happy thoughts. wtf

jen said...

Ah babe. Healing energy to you.

Green tea with ginseng. Chani taught me that, and it works.

love you.

Mary-LUE said...

Hi there! My name (at least my secret identity blogger name) is Mary-LUE and I stumbled over here from Oh, the Joys. Her perfect post nomination for you was justly awarded. Your description of those days nursing and singing to your daughter were really lovely.

I have had my own experience in the last few months of hoping the doctor would find something wrong with me to explain my lethargy, headaches, emotionalism, irritability of epic porportions. My bloodwork all came up nil but fortunately my doctor listened to me when I said what was happening wasn't normal. A few timely questions and I was on my way to a sleep study and Tada! I have sleep apnea. To borrow a phrase, "Oh, the Joy!"

I'm not suggesting that you have sleep apnea, just wanted to say that I've been there, it sucks and keep working on it. There are other things it might be that are treatable. I hope you find an answer soon!