1/21/07

Sunday Morning (but now it's afternoon) Song of the Moment


This one's for You & You and yeah, even You.....

I don't know about you all, but it seemed as though for quite awhile that I enjoyed living in a constant state of confusion. I had so many questions and got so few answers. I tried to force my way into a "normal" life. Despite forces pulling me in other directions. I was trying to decide my path. I couldn't figure out why relationships failed, why I couldn't figure out my purpose and why things in my life seemed to implode in on themselves.

But when I finally stopped pulling against the tides, the forces and the winds and finally learned to shut up for a second, it all fell into place(for the most part). I'm still trying to figure some things out. But in a much quieter way.
I've noticed that if you just sit still and be quiet it's much easier to hear the answers. For some reason, though, it's such a hard concept to grasp. I find that we waste a lot of time and energy on where we think we should be or what we think we should be doing. And just because we think those things, doesn't necessarily mean that's how it's supposed to work out - despite all of our efforts.

The following song, I feel just embodies that whole way of thinking. And for some reason, everytime I hear this song I instantly think of the book The Tao of Pooh.
It doesn't matter how many questions we have. We'll go searching. And we may think we have found them. Some paths are straight and narrow, others are a bit more meandering and winding. But life is about the journey, not necessarily the destination. And in the quiet, in the silence is when we do finally become Closer To Fine.

Closer To Fine
By: The Indigo Girls

I'm trying to tell you somethin' about my life
Maybe give me insight between black and white
The best thing you ever done for me
Is to help me take my life less seriously, it's only life after all
yeah.
Well the darkness has a hunger that's insatiable
And the lightness has a call that's hard to hear
I wrap my fear around me like a blanket
I sailed my ship of safety till I sank it
I'm crawling on your shore.

I went to the doctor, I went to the mountains
I looked to the children, I drank from the fountain
There's more than one answer to these questions
pointing me in a crooked line
And the less I seek my source for some definitive
The closer I am to fine

I went to see the doctor of philosophy
With a poster of Rasputin and a beard down to his knees
He never did marry or see a B-grade movie
He graded my performance, he said he could see through me
I spent four years prostrate to the higher mind, got my paper
And I was free.

I went to the doctor, I went to the mountains
I looked to the children, I drank from the fountain
There's more than one answer to these questions
pointing me in a crooked line
And the less I seek my source for some definitve
The closer I am to fine.

I stopped in the bar at 3 a.m.
To seek solace in the bottle or possibly a friend
I woke up with a headache like my head against the board
Twice as cloudy as I'd been the night before
I went in seeking clarity.

I went to the doctor, I went to the mountains
I looked to the children, I drank from the fountain
There's more than one answer to these questions
pointing me in a crooked line
And the less I seek my source for some definitive
The closer I am to fine

I went to the doctor, I went to the mountains
I looked to the children, I drank from the fountain
There's more than one answer to these questions
pointing me in a crooked line
And the less I seek my source for some definitive
The closer I am to fine

We go to the bible, we go through the workout
We read up on revival, and we stand up for the lookout
There's more than one answer to these questions
pointing me in a crooked line
The less I seek my source for some definitive
The closer I am to fine
The closer I am to fine
The closer I am to fine.

2 ripples in the pond:

jen said...

that is a perfect, perfect, perfect way to put it. living with less confusion now on my end, too. not liking it one bit.

love you. am going to play this song today and give a long distance dedication back to you.

Thailand Gal said...

Great song, good meaning. It's all about balance and finding freedom to be who we are. That is "closest to fine". :)


Peace,

~Chani