The Day My Heart Went Walking Outside Of My Body

About an hour ago, we dropped our first-born off for his first day of all-day kindergarten. As much as I have been looking forward to this, I was the only tearful mom in the school lobby. I couldn't hold back the tears off happiness for my boy's new adventure, the longing of days now gone by, worry, and trepidation from starting something new. This is the first real step in the separation that begins between momma and her cub. It is necessary and hard.

But it is good too. Deep down I am happy.
My heart aches a little for the profound silence in the house.
But it is good.

My main goal is to have my children fly - to soar. And they are getting there.
His feet are just barely off of the ground. But they are. And I am proud and happy.


Making the decision to have a child - it's momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking outside of your body. ~ Elizabeth Stone

11 ripples in the pond:

slackermommy said...

This post and the ending quote gives me goosebumps. You have such a wonderful view on motherhood.

Her Grace said...

So awesome that you can see both sides of it. The letting go is so, so hard, but it's what we're meant to do.

Hope your heart is doing well today, and I hope he has a wonderful time.

flutter said...

*lip quiver*

This is gorgeous and I think I will attribute that sole fact that I am a blubbering mess right now

Oh, The Joys said...

What a milestone! -SIGH-

Aliki2006 said...

How wonderful! As OTJ said--what a momentous, wonderful, bittersweet milestone!

jen said...

wow. wow, wow, wow.

gigantic and amazing and simply wow.

KC said...

First day already? It's exciting. Growth. I'd be bawling too.

Lacey said...

What a great post Tabba! Your kids are too cute in that picture! I bet he had a great day at school.

Pgoodness said...

Oh geez! I'm gonna start crying now about preschool that starts in a couple of weeks! Happiness for new adventure, trepidation from starting new...you say it so well!!

carrie said...

It's just the beginning!

Hope the first day went well, and you enjoyed that little respite from all the activity!

WhatWorksForMom said...

what a beautiful post and a milestone of a day!!