What I Really Want

Mother's Day has always sort of bothered me. As do my birthdays. I have a hard time being celebrated in that way. Yet, I really do want to be celebrated. It's a long story as to why. But I think it's a genetic dispostion.

Mother's Day though, always seems to be this big build up. The likes of which seem, by design, to be a big let-down. When the calendar rolls around to that day, I half choke on it like this dry, lump of sand in my throat and accompanied by a looong, slow roll of the eyes. And yet....
The other half of me wants a day. A day that is a little sweeter than all of the rest. A day that isn't a big build up and isn't a big let down. Just a nice day.

A few weeks ago, Rav asked me what I wanted for Mother's Day. I told him nothing. Which, is pretty true. I mean hell, does he want to hear about the 2 week vacation I would like to take that we can't possibly afford right now? Because that's what I really want.
But seriously.
I have the little herb garden I wanted.
I have my music.
I have the iPod.
I have the computer.
I have, have, have.
For all that we think we don't sometimes.
Then, after a quick second I said to him, On second thought. You know what I would like to have?
I heard the chuckle and the brief catch of the breath coming from my Rav.
What's that? He asks.
I would like you to call T.L. (he is a coworker of Rav's who is also a photographer).
Ask him how much it would cost to do a family portrait. I've wanted one of the four of us for so long. I feel so bad we have a lot of really good portraits of you, me & Connor. That's what I want. A family portrait.
I hear and feel the relief wash over him. OK. Sure. We can do that.

Calls were made. A place was decided on. A date was set. And a more than fair price was handed to us for a full photo shoot.

So, this Saturday the family Ravioli will be heading to a beautiful park. A beautiful park that is tucked away in the hills (snicker, snicker. Because if you've ever travelled in DE, you know there aren't many) in the northern part of our state. The park that was to be the site for our wedding. But is still so special to us anyway. And in that park, we will attempt to have a portrait taken of our family.
I can't wait.
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In other news, I want to thank you all for your kind words in my last post. I took your advice and called the area manager. We had a bit of a heart-to-heart. She set me up with a store that will be a better fit to my situation.
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And not only that....my hopes are no longer dashed. As I am now heading to Chicago. For blogher. With the lovely, Deb. We both needed something. And I think this will be it. I can't wait.